Today is by far the worst day yet....and it is only 9:30am. The boys had a restless night last night and didn't let Left Brain and I sleep a wink. So this morning while they were eating their breakfast...Left Brain and I sat down and had ourselves an old-fashioned cry session. We balled like a couple of babies. This is so incredibly hard for us right now. We aren't sleeping well, eating enough, and we are tired of feeling dirty....and we just sat down and cried about it. It sounds so silly to all of you...but it really made us feel a bit better. We are so ready to come home that we can't even think straight. We are having all of these emotions that aren't real because we can't focus on anything but getting all four of us home! Please continue to pray for us and our sanity. The boys are adjusting as well...but it just takes time. Things are already better than they were in some areas...like them minding us...but the sleeping and eating will have to come when they are ready.
Thanks so much for all of your encouraging emails. They really help us see the light at the end of the tunnel.
It's nap time now...and Blue Eyes let me put him down! YAY! A huge milestone! It only took 15 minutes...to the usual hour! Woot! Woot! He also ate plenty of lunch and used the potty all day without messing in his pull-ups! Thank you Jesus! Left Brain and I needed this for our sanity! GQ has been such a good boy today. He loves to be Mama's little helper. He helped me get Blue Eyes' outside clothes on him this morning and helped me fold clean clothes this afternoon. He is watching tv quietly while his "bratik" (brother) is sleeping. What a good little boy!
I have always been a firm believer in an old fashion cry. God made us that way and we used it frequently as babies and children as a stress reliever. I think it still works. I'm glad you have each other to share so much with. It will help you for the rest of your lives to get thru crises. You will get thru this one with God's help. He made you strong people for a reason and He will keep on helping you in these last hard days. I'm sure your reaction is what anyone would do in the circumstances. I'm so glad that the boys are adjusting (that's actually what you are doing too.) It will make you a stronger family but right now just hang in there and take it hour by hour if you have to. Today is almost over for you all and maybe you can rest tonight. Only 2 more days till you will have another step climbed and that will help you climb the next on and fly on home.
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Granny Norma
YOU HAVE THE FAVOR OF GOD. YOU'RE ALMOST HOME. I LOVE YOU. CILLIA
ReplyDeleteNikki I'm sorry you had a bad day it will get better when you get back here and have the support of friends and family. The hard part is almost over and it will get easier as time goes by. Wish you guys were home!
ReplyDeletean old fashion cry never hurt anyone or anything. You guys hang in there and know that lots of people are praying for you. You guys were a special prayer request of the choir last night and so many people are telling me they are praying for you. just remember God is good all the time......
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thanks for inviting me to be a part of your journey. i really DO understand how hard it can be. sorry you have had some not so encouraging emails. this is a journey and the Holy SPirit can give you the wisdom to parent them. nobody can understand about these children unless you have been there and then each child will be different. just hang in there until you can get home and get a rountine established. keep everything as simple as you can! cry when you need to...i still do!
ReplyDeleteKeep on climbing that mountain...you're almost to the TOP!!
ReplyDeleteben and nikki im so sry that today was the breakdown for you all. everything will go smoother when you get home. i know you all are home sick and are very ready to come home i love yall very much ~court~
ReplyDeleteBen & Nikki,
Please don't get discouraged. Just 4 more days and you will be on your way home. Believe me, this will not be the only cry session that you will ever do. Every good parent and parents go through this every single day. You are not alone. You both will go through many ups and downs but please believe me when I say it will pay off. When you see the smiles on the little faces, you will get a sense of accomplishment and pride. God is going to reward you both tremendously. And believe me He never puts anything on you that you cannot handle!!!!!!!!!! -Tammy-
Hello Ben , Nikki and boys , i follow u every day and pray for u. there is a lot of stress that u are going through right now, i havent walked in ur shoes but i have a son and daughter-in-law that has experienced what ur going through. When our little Jayden wants to help with things we let her because it makes her know that she is worth something and it makes her feel good to help out. Its perfectly normal to cry, because u have experienced a lot already and so have the boys , it takes time to adjust to each other just think how hard it has been already for u to adjust , its been just as hard for the boys it will get better just hang in there. Love U all Junior and Carolyn
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